I’m the kind of person who likes to get things done. I don’t often struggle with procrastination, and when I do, it’s not because of a lack of commitment, so much as a lack of belief that I can do the thing I don’t want to be doing. Some may consider fear a great motivator, but at other times I think it’s a great DEmotivator. How much do we not do because we’re scared we won’t be good at it?
I’ve been thinking about that a bit of late. It only takes one well timed FB quote that challenges you on ‘what would you do if you knew you couldn’t fail,’ to have you seriously contemplating the question. We’d all answer those questions differently I’m sure; after all it’s highly unlikely that my dreams are the same as yours.
But what about when it comes to the small things? Like an email that’s sitting in your inbox that you don’t want to reply to?
Or an item on a to-do list that you keep overlooking because doing it is going to costs more than you actually want to give?
Maybe it’s a difficult conversation you’ve been avoiding, or an essay you don’t really want to write.
When it’s that kind of stuff, the getting things done seems less inviting. Procrastinating seems the only valid option.
Here’s what I find about procrastinating though — it might seem productive if you clean the floor in order to avoid doing the dishes, but in the end, it’s not productive because it stops you dealing with the thing, that is stopping you from doing what you’re supposed to be doing. (Also cause the thing you’re supposed to be doing is still not done.)
When I procrastinate having a difficult conversation, I’m actually avoiding dealing with a fear of conflict.
When I’m putting off writing that essay, it’s because I don’t want to deal with the potential for failure.
Procrastination is, in my experience, just letting fear demotivate me.
This morning I was reading my bible on You Version, and one of my friends had highlighted Hebrews 10:36.
“You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.”
Now to be fair, when you read this verse in its context it’s not so much an encouragement to clean out your inbox as it is to keep persevering in your faith and doing what it is that God has called you to do, even in the midst of extreme circumstances (such as people wanting to lock you up in prison and such).
But when I read it, I couldn’t help but think that if I don’t deal with the little things that convince me to waste my time, and hold me back, then persevering in the will of God becomes just that little bit more difficult. Because the little things may not be the things that change the world, but they are often the things that change me, and help me become more — or less — like Christ. And being more like Christ, and being motivated by the things that motivated Him, well that’s the goal.
So I’m working on changing my thinking. Rather than seeing things as another to-do, I’m looking at them as a to-grow. Rather than letting fear demotivate me, I’m working on kicking it to the curb. Cause getting things done is important, but persevering in my faith and getting God’s will done is what I’m really here for, and I don’t ever want to procrastinate that.